Thoughts...

I do not know what to think anymore,life is something that is so hard. I cant take life anymore. I don't understand why people so close to me have to get taken away. I know everyone have to pass someday but i cant take it. I feel like why did god create us in bring us in this world and then take us right back out. I feel like he wasted his time and definitely my time. I just don't know what to do anymore. My biggest fear is death and I'm very scared, and i don't know why. I just lost someone that was very close to me and I'm dealing with it because i don't have choice. But you know what I'm a strong young lady so I will be alright. I have dreams and goals and i hope god let me live fulfill my dreams, and accomplish my goals. I loo at life different since this happen to me because i know that tomorrow is not promise but now i really believe it and see how important it is to live my life to the fullest now. Life is a game to me, and the way i see it is you have to fight and stay in the game because if you lose you want be able to play again. You get one try so you have to think fast, and smart. These are my thoughts now and how i look at life, its crazy i know but its the truth and no one can change the way i view life now.